i miss school. junior college, secondary school. i miss wearing uniforms, of modifying uniforms just cos we didn't want to look toot. elastic in shirts, folded up skirts, low socks, piercings whatever. there was this indescribable thrill and adrenaline rush you get from breaking the school rules, skipping school and doing stupid things. hahaha. well till rj came and ponning school became nothing new. but yeh. its only cos there are rules saying you can't do something, that makes the thing more fun no? haha.

i miss having the huge canteen where everyday we'd congregate. 408 table in the morning. ruggers and hockey tables on our right. where because you have the same sport, same interest, were in the same team, you just belonged there. all the pieces fit and all the groups came together to be this crazy picture that was jc. i loved to sit in the canteen, watching groups, watching ppl. i remember sitting with yee ler and the hockey boys once, and it was odd, unsettling and yet not uncomfortable. its like no matter what there was this sense of belonging. same school, same course, same cca, same whatever. everyone was tied in one way or another. and it was so easy to be in groups, i loved the dancers as a whole, though i can't say i'm dead tight close to anyone anymore (other than angie). which is odd. we worked perfectly as a group, but not so as individuals. haha. interesting eh. but in gym we sucked as a group, but were perfect as individuals. i miss this feeling of belonging, to have somewhere that's always open to you. that you could sit and spend hours wasting away. you don't get it here ): and that's probably one of e few things that make spore schools look so appealing sometimes.

ok -.- need to stop these nonsense ramblings. hahaha, my neighbour's having a stress attack. i can smell e smoke from my room. sheesh, and e idiot boy downstairs is playing e ukelele again. SHEESH.